A Reintroduction
I feel like this kind of happens every several years - my life feels like it gets incredibly messy, like a tangled rope, the ends hidden among countless knots that would take hours of patience to untangle. I want so badly for the rope to be neatly coiled, its midpoint and endpoints evident. Instead, it sits in an unorganized pile in the corner of my room.
The truth is, though, life is always messy. It doesn’t really get messy, though sometimes the rope does have more bights in it than I’d like it to. I joke with my friends all the time that I’m a mess. I do believe this to a great extent, but usually I’m also kind of ok with it. The process of the untangling is tedious, but it’s also necessary. It’s the only way to get to know every inch of the rope, for me to understand myself more and more everyday.
We are all changing slowly, experiences and interactions accumulating and building off each other. I’m having some trouble figuring myself out, but I’d like to think that I'm growing into myself more every day.
Throughout the last year or so, several things have become evident to me:
I feel most at peace when I'm outside - on a mountain top, struggling up a boulder, breathing in fresh air (even if it's through a mask)
Being happy can actually be pretty simple sometimes.
But I tend to like to overcomplicate and overthink.
I love being on the road, constantly experiencing new places and people, yet I crave companionship and the warmth of a home base.
I value empathy in others and myself. Still, I am sometimes selfish but hate to admit it.
Photography and digital art are my preferred forms of communication.
Crimps >>> slopers.
This is me attempting to untangle my rope. I get that absolutes don't really exist but overthinking it doesn't really help either. I'm going to be using this blog as a space to figure shit out and also to record and share experiences I want to remember and treasure.
I want to never stop appreciating life. I want to explore the corners of the earth, to love and learn, to climb higher, to dive deeper, to connect, and to create.